Saturday, October 21, 2006

exams are coming soon! well. quite a few things happened over the week.
i am not that scared anymore. so ya. i'll try not to. wanna thank all those
people who were there for me. (: dunjun, jean, rina, driftor, hit, jill...
thanks for being there when i needed someone. i dont feel so scared anymore.
hah. i finally get to go to keppel today! gosh! it feels like home okay. i miss
the people there so much. i'll try to go down on sunday to see girlfriends and
coaches. (: listen up angels! genevieve asked me to tell you that after our Os
we will go out together. hah. i've agreed to it already cause i know we will never
turn her down. esp this kind of occasion cause we've never gone out together! (:

kaixian! i know you finished your exams already okay! but i havent! so you have
to continue to push me! you've stopped pushing me! argh! you abandoned me! X)

i feel so sweet now. dont know why. but i feel like this:
Its hard to believe That I couldnt see. You were always there beside me.
Thought I was alone with no one to hold. But you were always right beside me.
This feeling is like no other. I want you to know.
Ive never had someone that knows me like you do.
The way you do. Ive never had someone as good for me as you.
No one like you. So lonely before, Ive finally found, What Ive been looking for.
So good to be seen. So good to be heard. Dont have to say a word.
For so long I was lost. So good to be found. Im loving having you around.
This feelings like no other. I want you to know.
Ive never had someone that knows me like you do.
The way you do Ive never had someone as good for me as you.
No one like you. So lonely before, I finally found What Ive been looking for.

  Sunday, October 08, 2006

the haze is damn damn bad. i could hardly see the condo buildings at
inggrid's house. as in its quite blur. thanks inggrid for inviting me
to your party! (: i really enjoyed it. esp all those food. hah! it's quite
a touching day today. could see how much yingjie they all ( the five
flowers.) wanted to make inggrid's birthday a memorable one.
watched the cinderella story today! my gosh. the guy is super duper
charming! everyone just came together to watch the show. then went
for the bbq. all i did was happily eat all i can. i did offer to help.
bernie and ber BUT they didnt want to let me help.
so i helped by helping to eat. :D

we started singing hold on to our dreams. it's so touching! i mean. it
would be hard to have such days already. we got all wet too. hah.
it was so so fun! played in the pool. i'll always remember this day. (:
next year. all of us have to come together for any special day. those
who are going away it's okay. when you all are coming back just tell
us. we will all go to the airport to pick you up. (: its a deal. its the true
4A class spirit. oh oh! and i had a very nice time with sandy and
yingjie at seoul garden yesterday too! we ate for 4 hours. hah.
just eat and talk. wow. the food is nice okay. but more imptly.
its the spending time with each other that is the most memorable.

thanks JEAN! for inviting me to your house yesterday to celebrate
mooncake festival. hah. i enjoyed myself. this is true. hah. well. if you
didnt invite me. i think i would just regret okay. cause i think i will
be at home. when you are celebrating and my friends are in school
celebrating instead of studying! it's supposed to be night study. hah.

to my dearest KAIXIAN. i will work very very hard okay? i'll try.
my results are for you to find out. hah! i wont say anything. but
its bad okay. so ya. hah. embarrassing! study hard ya? and you
dont have to take physics anymore! i am happy for you! PHYSICS
SUCKS! :D

i'll remember all the times we all had together. it's worth to keep.

  Wednesday, October 04, 2006

it's time to wake up and face reality. life is never fair. so you just have to
accept it. it's destined to be. i dont really say my life is full of happy
memories. but maybe when compared to others, i am much much more
fortunate. i never really had much love showered on me when i was
younger. i just didnt get that feeling from the people around me. putting
myself in my brother's shoes right now. i think he is much more fortunate
than i am. he has gotten all the love from everyone. and that, i dont blame
him. the funny thing is that i can feel the love he gets. it makes me a little
envious. but afterall. he is my brother. and there is no need for me to feel
jealous about cause i love my borther.

i dont really dare to think about what may happen in future.
time is passing by so quickly that i am so scared to think about it. thinking back.
i still think that i didnt have a nice childhood. there is this feeling in me that tells
me i am deprived of something. something which makes my life incomplete.

 

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