Wednesday, October 04, 2006

it's time to wake up and face reality. life is never fair. so you just have to
accept it. it's destined to be. i dont really say my life is full of happy
memories. but maybe when compared to others, i am much much more
fortunate. i never really had much love showered on me when i was
younger. i just didnt get that feeling from the people around me. putting
myself in my brother's shoes right now. i think he is much more fortunate
than i am. he has gotten all the love from everyone. and that, i dont blame
him. the funny thing is that i can feel the love he gets. it makes me a little
envious. but afterall. he is my brother. and there is no need for me to feel
jealous about cause i love my borther.

i dont really dare to think about what may happen in future.
time is passing by so quickly that i am so scared to think about it. thinking back.
i still think that i didnt have a nice childhood. there is this feeling in me that tells
me i am deprived of something. something which makes my life incomplete.

 

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