i know you see me too.  

                           

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HELLO
it really makes me wonder.
why you came back.
YOU (:
jo.
girl.
we can be as one.
16 going on 17.
07S13.
OG 29.
07.
gemini.
made with love.


 JUNKIES (:
gwen.:D
 weejia.(:
 valerie. (:
 lynsey.(:
 jade.
 cheri.
 jodie.
 yimei.
 cherlyn.
 amelia.
 maria.
 joan.
 junior gwen.
 michelle.
 sein teng.
 yingjie.
 sandra.
 chelsy.
 leanne.
amanda nicole.
claudia. :D
kaixian.
yinfung.
nicole benny.(:
kel.(:
twin.(:


BABBLINGS (:

WISHLIST (:
straight As.
i will try to achieve it.


BYE BYES (: July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007

THANKS TO (:
niss
angelic-trust
styxoath

Saturday, January 20, 2007


i am not going out anymore. fucking not. i seriously dont understand what's your fucking problem. didnt i tell you i was going out with han they all like weeks back? you know very well han is leaving. this is gonna be the last outing. shut your damn mouth okay. i hope you heard it very clearly that i ask you to shut your fucking mouth up in your face. what gave you the impression that i am always with only the guys and not the girls. i've gotten this kind of attitude from you twice this week. cant you just give me a break. i am not saying a thing cause my throat is painful. but it doesnt give you a reason to shout at me again. stop using the way my parents' friends treat them okay. cause you are not any better. if you dare just get me out of the house. i will find a way. i've had enough. ENOUGH! i am 17 okay. i know you care. i know dad cares too. but hello. i can at least take care of myself a little. the reason why i am looking so sleepy is because of my throat. i feel sick. not tired! these are all your damn assumptions. fucking assumptions. all you know what to go is scold. i didnt want you to come and pick me up yesterday is because i didnt want to trouble you. and i needed the long way home cause i dont feel like going home. i am scared of all those scolding okay. all your screaming. i am runnin away. i am trying to avoid all these as much as i can. you think i am gonna cry. right. i am not. twice. i didnt even feel like crying in front of you. cause you know why? i dont see a point why i should cry. scold all you want bitch. seriously. scold all you want. all you ever do is vent your damn anger on me. ya ya. dad scolds you about me and you come and threaten me and say it in my face that you are not a good mom. fine. if that's the case, i'll just take it as it is. i, myself, didnt even say anything. in my eyes you are my mom. i didnt mention a single word that you a bad mom okay. i didnt. you say i am being rude. i am talking back to you. hello. i am not even saying anything. you want me to study. but do you even see me doing it. fucking didnt. cause you are all asleep. and now i am all quiet you say i am giving you attitude. i am not. i am being neutral now. do you want me to kill you in front of you then you will shut your mouth up. stop throwing me all your assumptions okay. it's not as if you didnt know how i was. it's not as if you didnt know i slit myself. shut up. get it. shut up. i am scared of you. really.

She's been down and out.She's been wrote about.She's been talked about constantly.She's been up and down.She's been pushed around.But they held her down in YC.She has no regrets.She accepts the past.All these things they help to make she.She's been lost and found.And she's still around.There's a reason for everything.You know I've been holding on.Try to make me weak.But I still stay strong. Put my life all up in these songs. Just so you can feel me.Yes she's older now. yes she's wiser now.Can't disguise her now, she don't need. No one telling her what to do and say. No one telling her who to be. She's on solid ground. She's been lost and found.But she answers to G-O-D. And she's confident this is not the end.Ask me how I know cause she's me.

 

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