Wednesday, May 02, 2007

nothing's been the same once jc really begins. season is over. and we didnt manage to make it to the next round. everytime i think of the hwa chong match, it just comes back to the same point that i let loui and the team down. if it's not for my injury, i wouldnt have lost the match with loui. sometimes i really feel that i am not good enough. really. all our effort didnt pay off. all those damn physical we did, damn suicides and sprints. my goodness. just didnt pay off. i know the coaches are disappointed. not just a little. and i know the j2s are super disappointed too. i mean who can accept the fact that all those tough trainings, physical and insufficient sleep just go to waste in 2 weeks? it's the pain we feel deep down inside.

i dont enjoy school like how i used to. the lecturers are bad. it's not about the spoonfeeding. it's just that the teachers tend to go very fast and they will give you the reason saying that : we have no more time! come on. you would rather we know our stuff than not right? i see no point rushing, getting all the syllabus done but know nothing. and everything is screwed for today i tell you. i've got my auntie to go pick up the photocopied text from the uncle and guess what. he didnt photocopy it. like what the fuck. he could have called me to pick my original text earlier and gave someone else to photocopy. fine. he said it will be more expensive to photocopy so he told my auntie to tell me that i should buy a copy of the text. okay. so my aunt tried to help and she asked another photocopying shop to see if they wanna do the business. and the same thing they said to buy another copy. so when she came back she told me everything. how nice of her, she told me she checked with the bookshop auntie. and the auntie say that the copy costs about 65. so like yea. buy from her. called nic and told her. and then i rush all the way to coronation. and guess what?! the shop was close and i had to wait for like 10 mins. so finally when she came back, i asked her does she have the text now since i dont see on the shelf myself. and no! the texts have not arrive. oh my fucking shit okay. she could have told my auntie! then i dont have to rush here and there. instead, i have to place order! fuck! i came back home after that with nothing in my hands. HAHA! so funny ya? today is a screwed day totally. like it's trying to make a fool out of me. and sorry nic for all these inconvience. sorry.

like what jia said : all we need arent boyfriends now but good friends like us! i totally agree with jia. i mean boys may come and they may go, but friends will be there forever. they come in and out of lifes without leaving behind any footsteps. but friends leave not only a big big footstep but a very deep one!

Every day when the work is behind you. and the shop and the store put the lock on the door, just get away where your worries won't find you. If you like, well, I'll tell you more. Don't let the day get the better of you. When the evening comes, there's so much to do! You'd better put on your best and wear a smile. Come along with me a while'cause I tell you. I know a place where the music is fine and the lights are always low! I know a place where we can go. cheer up girl. nothing is that difficult. put your focus on something else. i am sure, you will be happier somehow. we will always be here for you. (:

 

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