i know you see me too.  

                           

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HELLO
it really makes me wonder.
why you came back.
YOU (:
jo.
girl.
we can be as one.
16 going on 17.
07S13.
OG 29.
07.
gemini.
made with love.


 JUNKIES (:
gwen.:D
 weejia.(:
 valerie. (:
 lynsey.(:
 jade.
 cheri.
 jodie.
 yimei.
 cherlyn.
 amelia.
 maria.
 joan.
 junior gwen.
 michelle.
 sein teng.
 yingjie.
 sandra.
 chelsy.
 leanne.
amanda nicole.
claudia. :D
kaixian.
yinfung.
nicole benny.(:
kel.(:
twin.(:


BABBLINGS (:

WISHLIST (:
straight As.
i will try to achieve it.


BYE BYES (: July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007

THANKS TO (:
niss
angelic-trust
styxoath

Monday, May 28, 2007


oh man. it's the start of the school hols already! that's damn fast. very soon, i will be sitting for my common test then after that i will be having my sept hols and then come my promos. shit. that's damn fast!

the hockey girls played well on thursday even though we lost by one goal. it's okay. (: i didnt know how to go home from delta. so i walked all the way to the bus stop after bukit merah library. i was thinking about secondary school life while walking. and the songs that were playing really triggered the thoughts. i purposely missed all my buses just to take 855 home. and guess what?! the bus that came was the bus i always take. hah. i recognise the bus number plate. it's TIB 913 Z. i saw stc girls on the bus and i thought i still belonged there. i was sitting on the seat and i just didnt feel the same. that's when i realised hey i am not wearing my ij blue. the portion above my ankle doesnt feel as if there's something around it cause i'm not wearing the stc socks! oh man. i miss stc like mad. like omfg. i was thinking about everything okay. then i felt something missing. and that's my whole pile of books with my file! hah. i used to carry them to and from school and everyone will always offer help to carry them for me cause it's bloody heavy. i dont know how to managed to carry them. (: i'm still carrying the bag i always carry to stc. and it's how many times lighter than what i used to carry to school. so wierd right?! i was counting down the number of bus stops left to my stop. and that's when 'unfaithful' started to play. it made me remember that very day jillian loved that song. hah. rina, jillian, i and someone else were at the bus stop waiting for the bus. i let her hear the song. and that very day was like after bio paper i think. ): i wanna go back to sec 4! i want 4a back! it made me remember the 855 gang too. hiya! i could also tapped my card before going down. last time i couldnt even do it please. my hands are full and i wont be able to tap. walked home and have this tendency to like look my reflection on the windows of the church. i am not vain kay. but it's like ya. i always look to see if my uniform was neat even though i am just a few blocks away from home. that's when i realised i am no longer wearing the ij blue AGAIN! ): shit.

i met weixuan. saw her like from far but couldnt like confirm it was her. i was so so happy to see her. stc people! hah. we talked under the damn hot sun. and we realised there's so many things in common that we are facing right now. like we cant clique and everything. and most of all. WE MISS STC! shit shit shit! i really miss times in stc. i admit i didnt really like stc. but now i love it. like what weixuan said : treasure the times in stc when you can! time pass by so quickly that we dont even realise. i cant do well in my tests. and i feel like a damn failure. it's quite demoralising to know that you are lagging behind when actually in secondary school, you are way in front of people. crap.

benny and twin are in china now. i wonder how they are doing. i miss them badly. ): i feel empty inside like so insignificant. yet i feel that i should be left alone. life's bad for me even though i will always say i'm fine. i am not okay. gotta go study now before heading to jia's house i think. i dont know where i am going after leaving dad's office. i feel lost.

 

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